Welcome to 2018
I always feel a little off around New Years. Maybe, it's because I like the idea that it represents a fresh start but at the same time you will never be able to just change habits or your life overnight. It's a gradual process that can't happen magically just because the number on the calendar changes. However, as cynical as that might sound, I still like the symbolism of welcoming the new year and taking a moment to reflect and try to implement steps that might lead you to a happier life.
I rung in the new year with two very good friends of mine, delicious dinner, Cards Against Humanity and relaxed chats. It was not the two friends, who I have been celebrating with for the past few years and I have to admit it felt a little odd. Of course, I sent both of them messages but it was a bit weird not jumping into the new year while holding their hands and then pulling them into a hug. That's what we get for being so slow at arranging things.
I do love the two girls I spent the transition from one year to another with and it was just the kind of New Years that I needed, to be fair. I still deal with a lot of tiredness and I'm not sure exactly what to do about it. That's one of the things I need to figure out in this new year. Your health, both physical and mental is so damn important, so I have to remember to look after myself and do something about it if I don't feel well.
I have never been the biggest fan of fireworks. They're pretty and I can allow them on New Years or other rare special occasions because of tradition but at the same time, I can't help but think of all the smoke filling up our beautiful sky and all the mess they leave on the ground. It's also a whole lot of money for a brief moment of explosions on the night's sky. Thankfully, the girls shared my sentiment somewhat and we with stuck to lighting a couple of sparklers, which I still love so much.
We were out on a balcony on fourth floor, quite near where I'll be moving soon, and it was a lovely experience to just stand and watch the fireworks with my arms around two wonderful girls that I'm so happy to have in my life. It was slightly cold on our feet but to be honest, I hardly felt it. My heart was full as I thought of all the wonderful moments I have had with friends and family and even when talking with people online. This year had definitely had its tough moments but I find myself so damn grateful for all the wonderful people I have in my life.
It might sound odd for someone who treasures their alone time so much but I know people are important for my sanity and I do very much enjoy spending time with the ones I hold dear, even if I might tire if I haven't been allowed to recharge for a while. As I'm moving out in a month (what? time might be an illusion but damn, it moves fast), I know I'll have to be mindful of staying in touch with everyone in my life and not become a hermit or something.
2017 brought a whole lot of new experiences and I have a handy app on my phone that I have been using almost all year and I couldn't help but include a screen cap below. I like tracking and organising my time a whole lot. Sometimes, I worry if this constant tracking is indulging in my possible OCD tendencies a little too much but so far I feel okay about it. My year had been full of a lot of different things that I enjoy and I hope I'll have more time to all those in this new year.
I had originally planned to sleep over at my friend's house but I ended up deciding to catch the train home instead. There was something serene to be sat in the train, surrounded by drunk or tired people, and just glance out of the window. The plan was that it would make me more likely to begin on my exam (which is due in two days) earlier and I have hope that is still the case, even if I have indulged in summarising the pieces of writing I posted in December, as well as putting the little notes from my DnP calendar into my reminders, so I always feel like I have those goofballs checking in on me. I'll start working on the exam as soon as I finish this blog post.
But speaking of university, it is something that I want to get better at again. I was doing so well the first couple of months of my Masters but after my bout of pneumonia, I just had trouble getting stuck back into the work. I'm still dreading what the results of the two exams I did in December might yield. That is the exact reason I should stop procrastinating this exam and just freaking start working on it properly. I'll probably have to get out of my bed though. I can manage writing in here just fine but university work feels like it requires a table to work. However, can you really blame me for staying under the duvet when two dogs come and cuddle you? I'll miss this aspect of living at home so much, as well as just being able to yell to speak to any of my family members.
I have a feeling 2018 might bring some of my biggest challenges yet. I'm moving out, for good this time. At least that's the intention. If something happens, I know I'll always be welcome here and that is a soothing thought. But I am looking forward to getting my own space, even if I'll probably encounter so many problems that I wouldn't even be able to foresee at the moment. But it'll be good too, I'm sure of it.
January is actually a rather chill month for me, at least compared to how hectic February will be. I'll start doing four new university courses, working my two usual jobs and I'm back to teaching at my university as well. And I'm moving out. Oh, and keeping up with my horse, writing and social life. How I'm planning on doing all of that at the same time exactly is up in the air but I'll manage? I know that doesn't sound quite as confident as one would hope but I have always managed to scrape by even when I have struggled. So I'll be okay in the long run.
I just need to be mindful of taking care of myself. And that sounds ridiculous as saying right now, after I have spent the last few days just chilling out, having absolutely no work hours, hanging out with people I like, writing stories and ignoring my university work. On some level that is taking care of myself but on another, it is also indulging in bad habits a little too much. That's something I hope I'll get better at recognising and getting out of in the future.
A keen eye might have observed that while I never mention New Year Resolutions, I still mention things I want to get better at throughout this new year. I could come up with a whole list of very specific things I want to gradually get better at this year but with creating such list also comes some metal pressure and honestly, I'm done putting too much pressure on myself. It's stupid, especially since it's all just in my head.
On that note, I'll leave this post here. I have an e-mail to write about my university schedule, which is overlapping at the moment and then I'll have to pick a company and decide on strategies as I write my synopsis for Cross Cultural Communication. I've had a very chill morning (or a bit more, it's almost 4 PM right now but to be fair I only woke up a little to 12) and now it's time to be a good student again.
I rung in the new year with two very good friends of mine, delicious dinner, Cards Against Humanity and relaxed chats. It was not the two friends, who I have been celebrating with for the past few years and I have to admit it felt a little odd. Of course, I sent both of them messages but it was a bit weird not jumping into the new year while holding their hands and then pulling them into a hug. That's what we get for being so slow at arranging things.
I do love the two girls I spent the transition from one year to another with and it was just the kind of New Years that I needed, to be fair. I still deal with a lot of tiredness and I'm not sure exactly what to do about it. That's one of the things I need to figure out in this new year. Your health, both physical and mental is so damn important, so I have to remember to look after myself and do something about it if I don't feel well.
I have never been the biggest fan of fireworks. They're pretty and I can allow them on New Years or other rare special occasions because of tradition but at the same time, I can't help but think of all the smoke filling up our beautiful sky and all the mess they leave on the ground. It's also a whole lot of money for a brief moment of explosions on the night's sky. Thankfully, the girls shared my sentiment somewhat and we with stuck to lighting a couple of sparklers, which I still love so much.
We were out on a balcony on fourth floor, quite near where I'll be moving soon, and it was a lovely experience to just stand and watch the fireworks with my arms around two wonderful girls that I'm so happy to have in my life. It was slightly cold on our feet but to be honest, I hardly felt it. My heart was full as I thought of all the wonderful moments I have had with friends and family and even when talking with people online. This year had definitely had its tough moments but I find myself so damn grateful for all the wonderful people I have in my life.
It might sound odd for someone who treasures their alone time so much but I know people are important for my sanity and I do very much enjoy spending time with the ones I hold dear, even if I might tire if I haven't been allowed to recharge for a while. As I'm moving out in a month (what? time might be an illusion but damn, it moves fast), I know I'll have to be mindful of staying in touch with everyone in my life and not become a hermit or something.
2017 brought a whole lot of new experiences and I have a handy app on my phone that I have been using almost all year and I couldn't help but include a screen cap below. I like tracking and organising my time a whole lot. Sometimes, I worry if this constant tracking is indulging in my possible OCD tendencies a little too much but so far I feel okay about it. My year had been full of a lot of different things that I enjoy and I hope I'll have more time to all those in this new year.
I had originally planned to sleep over at my friend's house but I ended up deciding to catch the train home instead. There was something serene to be sat in the train, surrounded by drunk or tired people, and just glance out of the window. The plan was that it would make me more likely to begin on my exam (which is due in two days) earlier and I have hope that is still the case, even if I have indulged in summarising the pieces of writing I posted in December, as well as putting the little notes from my DnP calendar into my reminders, so I always feel like I have those goofballs checking in on me. I'll start working on the exam as soon as I finish this blog post.
But speaking of university, it is something that I want to get better at again. I was doing so well the first couple of months of my Masters but after my bout of pneumonia, I just had trouble getting stuck back into the work. I'm still dreading what the results of the two exams I did in December might yield. That is the exact reason I should stop procrastinating this exam and just freaking start working on it properly. I'll probably have to get out of my bed though. I can manage writing in here just fine but university work feels like it requires a table to work. However, can you really blame me for staying under the duvet when two dogs come and cuddle you? I'll miss this aspect of living at home so much, as well as just being able to yell to speak to any of my family members.
I have a feeling 2018 might bring some of my biggest challenges yet. I'm moving out, for good this time. At least that's the intention. If something happens, I know I'll always be welcome here and that is a soothing thought. But I am looking forward to getting my own space, even if I'll probably encounter so many problems that I wouldn't even be able to foresee at the moment. But it'll be good too, I'm sure of it.
January is actually a rather chill month for me, at least compared to how hectic February will be. I'll start doing four new university courses, working my two usual jobs and I'm back to teaching at my university as well. And I'm moving out. Oh, and keeping up with my horse, writing and social life. How I'm planning on doing all of that at the same time exactly is up in the air but I'll manage? I know that doesn't sound quite as confident as one would hope but I have always managed to scrape by even when I have struggled. So I'll be okay in the long run.
I just need to be mindful of taking care of myself. And that sounds ridiculous as saying right now, after I have spent the last few days just chilling out, having absolutely no work hours, hanging out with people I like, writing stories and ignoring my university work. On some level that is taking care of myself but on another, it is also indulging in bad habits a little too much. That's something I hope I'll get better at recognising and getting out of in the future.
A keen eye might have observed that while I never mention New Year Resolutions, I still mention things I want to get better at throughout this new year. I could come up with a whole list of very specific things I want to gradually get better at this year but with creating such list also comes some metal pressure and honestly, I'm done putting too much pressure on myself. It's stupid, especially since it's all just in my head.
On that note, I'll leave this post here. I have an e-mail to write about my university schedule, which is overlapping at the moment and then I'll have to pick a company and decide on strategies as I write my synopsis for Cross Cultural Communication. I've had a very chill morning (or a bit more, it's almost 4 PM right now but to be fair I only woke up a little to 12) and now it's time to be a good student again.
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