Back to Bath
Today was the first day I went back to campus. Firstly, it always feels weird to go back to 'school' after your Christmas break but this year it was quite different from me. My university was in a different country, not even taking into account going back to university also meant going back to my accommodation.
It was actually very nice to be back in my room. I never really thought I could think of a dorm room as my home because of the anonymous setting and impersonal decor. I'm rather surprised with myself when I say that I do. I had been living there for nearly three months and it became my safe space. Or rather one of my safe spaces as I gradually got to know the city and campus, I actually felt very safe there. This was my city. I never thought I would think of a small city in freaking England! as my home.
I really do hope my mother and I can succeed in arranging a trip to Bath next December because I know I'll miss it. I loved being home in my family house and catching up with friends and family but I still missed the beautiful city of Bath and surprisingly also the people here. It'll probably be easier as I leave because most of my friends will leave too, as they are all exchange students as well.
I'm currently in my first and only revision class (it's now the five minute break, I'm not writing during the lecture - the three paragraphs above was written while I waited for it to start). And boy, it's odd to be back. It's my decision making class, which is one that I find very fascinating, but I can definitely feel that I haven't studied any of the material in over a month. The exam is next Friday. However it only counts for 65% of my overall grade and I already have finished two tests that account for the rest. I did terribly on the first one, actually failing with one point from passing, because I was so scared to put down the wrong answer as that got points deducted. I filled out less than 2/3 of the test. However, I forced myself to be less scared to put down answers I wasn't sure were right and did much better.
At the moment, my life still feels a bit in limbo but honestly I can live with that. There's so much uncertainty in my life at the moment; where will I live when I come back, how will I do at my new job as a university instructor, what will I write my bachelor thesis on and with whom, what education will I pick afterwards and should I take a break from education?
I'm nervous for all of the above. I'm trying not to be but I am. I've never been much of a go-with-the-flow type of person but lately I've been forced to sometimes. I like having mapped out my day down to the smallest detail and I like knowing about things well in advance. However, I realise life doesn't work that way and sooner or later, I'll have to learn.
This post is all over the place, but to be fair this is the third time I'm picking it up and now I'm not on campus anymore but back in my room. One thing that I noticed on my walk home is that Bath is so much hotter than Copenhagen at the moment. It's actually quite nice weather and I definitely wouldn't think that it was the beginning of January. Honestly, global warming probably has a part to play in that but I would rather not go down that train of thought just now.
After I have put this live, I'm going for a run. I haven't been on one for over a month but I do want to get back in shape. I don't like feeling out of breath or tired if I attempt to climb five flights of stairs or need to run to catch the bus. I like feeling strong and being in shape. Coming back to train dressage with my horse after three months of not having been on a horse, was extremely difficult and my muscles had definitely disappeared. Running won't really help that but at least I'll keep up my cardio.
With that I better stop delaying it. Afterwards, I think I'll treat myself to a pamper afternoon and a bath with a Lush bath bomb. I want to make the most of having a bath as I have to say goodbye to that privilege in less than two weeks. I'm done with three out of five exams for this semester. Just two more to go!
It was actually very nice to be back in my room. I never really thought I could think of a dorm room as my home because of the anonymous setting and impersonal decor. I'm rather surprised with myself when I say that I do. I had been living there for nearly three months and it became my safe space. Or rather one of my safe spaces as I gradually got to know the city and campus, I actually felt very safe there. This was my city. I never thought I would think of a small city in freaking England! as my home.
I really do hope my mother and I can succeed in arranging a trip to Bath next December because I know I'll miss it. I loved being home in my family house and catching up with friends and family but I still missed the beautiful city of Bath and surprisingly also the people here. It'll probably be easier as I leave because most of my friends will leave too, as they are all exchange students as well.
I'm currently in my first and only revision class (it's now the five minute break, I'm not writing during the lecture - the three paragraphs above was written while I waited for it to start). And boy, it's odd to be back. It's my decision making class, which is one that I find very fascinating, but I can definitely feel that I haven't studied any of the material in over a month. The exam is next Friday. However it only counts for 65% of my overall grade and I already have finished two tests that account for the rest. I did terribly on the first one, actually failing with one point from passing, because I was so scared to put down the wrong answer as that got points deducted. I filled out less than 2/3 of the test. However, I forced myself to be less scared to put down answers I wasn't sure were right and did much better.
At the moment, my life still feels a bit in limbo but honestly I can live with that. There's so much uncertainty in my life at the moment; where will I live when I come back, how will I do at my new job as a university instructor, what will I write my bachelor thesis on and with whom, what education will I pick afterwards and should I take a break from education?
I'm nervous for all of the above. I'm trying not to be but I am. I've never been much of a go-with-the-flow type of person but lately I've been forced to sometimes. I like having mapped out my day down to the smallest detail and I like knowing about things well in advance. However, I realise life doesn't work that way and sooner or later, I'll have to learn.
This post is all over the place, but to be fair this is the third time I'm picking it up and now I'm not on campus anymore but back in my room. One thing that I noticed on my walk home is that Bath is so much hotter than Copenhagen at the moment. It's actually quite nice weather and I definitely wouldn't think that it was the beginning of January. Honestly, global warming probably has a part to play in that but I would rather not go down that train of thought just now.
After I have put this live, I'm going for a run. I haven't been on one for over a month but I do want to get back in shape. I don't like feeling out of breath or tired if I attempt to climb five flights of stairs or need to run to catch the bus. I like feeling strong and being in shape. Coming back to train dressage with my horse after three months of not having been on a horse, was extremely difficult and my muscles had definitely disappeared. Running won't really help that but at least I'll keep up my cardio.
With that I better stop delaying it. Afterwards, I think I'll treat myself to a pamper afternoon and a bath with a Lush bath bomb. I want to make the most of having a bath as I have to say goodbye to that privilege in less than two weeks. I'm done with three out of five exams for this semester. Just two more to go!
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