Taking a Step Back to See the Big Picture
I find myself thinking deeply lately and I love it. This past week I've felt like my creativity has sprouting through the hard ground after a cold winter. Slowly but oh so surely, it is breaking through and flourishing again.
Today, I worked hard on my BA but I had decided to take my work outside and enjoy the lovely weather. After about a solid hour of work, I got up to stretch my legs and move out of the sun that had burned on my back for a good while. Our dog Hallie was a huge fan of me working outside and had been running around, playing with herself by tossing a tennis ball forward and then going to catch it.
I sat down on the trampoline with her, which is placed at the back of our small but quite long garden. I glanced back at the house and feel an odd surge through my stomach. It's my childhood home, I moved there before I turned 3 but it struck me how funny it looked to watch the house from that far away. I never really considered how it looks as a whole and from an angle I rarely see, as I rather just see small glimpses of it up close. It was a different beauty from afar.
I had initially left my phone, and thereby my camera, inside to avoid distractions but I went back in and got it to take some photos. It was a much needed break from concentrating and I felt so at peace and even tossed Hallie's tennis ball for her. She's a huge fan of our trampoline, it's kind of her Lion King pride rock, so after fetching the ball she came flying back up on the trampoline. I caught this nice action shot of her. Isn't she the cutest?
Mind you, it is quite a jump, taller than herself, but she still jumps it with ease at 7 years old. Oh, how I love that boxers never get old. They're constantly childlike in their manner and unlike other breeds stay "hyper" and active until they leave us.
I love having animals because aside from being great companions, I also learn at lot from them. Watching something as simple as me throwing a ball make Hallie all excited is absolutely precious and it's a good wake-up call sometimes. You should love life and be thankful for it and not let worries cloud your enthusiasm and look for joy in even the simplest of things.
Dogs, especially, are always just happy and it's contagious. They're also extremely sensitive to how you're feeling and if I'm ever not feeling good, and sit on the kitchen floor as I've done a couple of times, she'll sense it and come lick my hands and face and sit in my lap. She is absolutely precious and here I caught her enjoying the sun on the sun lounger, where either Mum or I usually lay and she was really chuffed with herself.
I think it's really important for me to have those quiet moments where I can just completely detach, more so than I ever really knew. I'm still learning so much about myself and sometimes I do have to just allow myself to take a step back and evaluate the situation. With all the things I had on my plate, blinking red demanding to be handled, I forgot to see the bigger picture. I'm happy, healthy and I have a lot of loved ones in my life.
I'm a natural worrier, though I'm working really hard not to be, and I obsess over small details. The latter is a trait I like to a degree, since it makes me strive to do things well, a perfectionism if you will. But... sometimes it makes me too caught up with something and it feels like a personal hit if I have to hand in something I'm not 100 % happy with. That's not to say I think I should stop caring, I should definitely continue to work hard on things I either need or want to make good but I need to accept not everything I do will be objectively perfect. But by a change in attitude, I can re-evaluate what I define "perfect" as.
As I said, I'm learning a lot about myself during this time and I'm learning what things I should value and what I should work on. And when I get too caught up in one misplaced pixel, I should zoom out and see the entirety. That one pixel honestly doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things.
Today, I worked hard on my BA but I had decided to take my work outside and enjoy the lovely weather. After about a solid hour of work, I got up to stretch my legs and move out of the sun that had burned on my back for a good while. Our dog Hallie was a huge fan of me working outside and had been running around, playing with herself by tossing a tennis ball forward and then going to catch it.
I sat down on the trampoline with her, which is placed at the back of our small but quite long garden. I glanced back at the house and feel an odd surge through my stomach. It's my childhood home, I moved there before I turned 3 but it struck me how funny it looked to watch the house from that far away. I never really considered how it looks as a whole and from an angle I rarely see, as I rather just see small glimpses of it up close. It was a different beauty from afar.
I had initially left my phone, and thereby my camera, inside to avoid distractions but I went back in and got it to take some photos. It was a much needed break from concentrating and I felt so at peace and even tossed Hallie's tennis ball for her. She's a huge fan of our trampoline, it's kind of her Lion King pride rock, so after fetching the ball she came flying back up on the trampoline. I caught this nice action shot of her. Isn't she the cutest?
Mind you, it is quite a jump, taller than herself, but she still jumps it with ease at 7 years old. Oh, how I love that boxers never get old. They're constantly childlike in their manner and unlike other breeds stay "hyper" and active until they leave us.
I love having animals because aside from being great companions, I also learn at lot from them. Watching something as simple as me throwing a ball make Hallie all excited is absolutely precious and it's a good wake-up call sometimes. You should love life and be thankful for it and not let worries cloud your enthusiasm and look for joy in even the simplest of things.
Dogs, especially, are always just happy and it's contagious. They're also extremely sensitive to how you're feeling and if I'm ever not feeling good, and sit on the kitchen floor as I've done a couple of times, she'll sense it and come lick my hands and face and sit in my lap. She is absolutely precious and here I caught her enjoying the sun on the sun lounger, where either Mum or I usually lay and she was really chuffed with herself.
I think it's really important for me to have those quiet moments where I can just completely detach, more so than I ever really knew. I'm still learning so much about myself and sometimes I do have to just allow myself to take a step back and evaluate the situation. With all the things I had on my plate, blinking red demanding to be handled, I forgot to see the bigger picture. I'm happy, healthy and I have a lot of loved ones in my life.
I'm a natural worrier, though I'm working really hard not to be, and I obsess over small details. The latter is a trait I like to a degree, since it makes me strive to do things well, a perfectionism if you will. But... sometimes it makes me too caught up with something and it feels like a personal hit if I have to hand in something I'm not 100 % happy with. That's not to say I think I should stop caring, I should definitely continue to work hard on things I either need or want to make good but I need to accept not everything I do will be objectively perfect. But by a change in attitude, I can re-evaluate what I define "perfect" as.
As I said, I'm learning a lot about myself during this time and I'm learning what things I should value and what I should work on. And when I get too caught up in one misplaced pixel, I should zoom out and see the entirety. That one pixel honestly doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things.
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